annanotbob's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I got a Nikon camera, I love to take a phototgraph The laptop has bust as well now so things feel as though they are disintegrating all around me. All very hectic and just beyond my grasp. Maria arrived at my house as I got back from here (Jane's) yesterday, having had a big row with Bob and come up to the city for a bangin' night out. Flattering though it is to be considered in such a light, I'm not up for hot crowded clubs and dancing till dawn. Not this week when I have the Big Chill next weekend. Lots of chaos and confusuon ensued, with a house full of people going 'Shall I? Shan't I? about clubbing and mdna and Sam and Sara both with bad toothache and little Tony not going to bed and my mind a whirl of confusion and sense of obligation to all, though none was necessary. Today has been about comedowns, and Maria's friend Maria, Sammie coming to get Tony who'd gone to the pictures with Sara and everyone cross and snitty cos it really was fucking hot, but they've all gone now and even Jane is out as I sit in her house using her computer. In amongst the mayhem I have been bathed in loving goodwill from all, so I am trying to hold on to that, it's onle me who hates being me - to the outside world I seem OK. Would that it were enough, but I might come round to liking me a bit in the end. Being me is just too hard though. Enough, already. I'm a bit of a walking disaster area right now as well. Falling over, spilling a quiche straight from the oven onto my bare foot - blister, gone septic now. Scratched all up my leg on the side of the table, blood everywhere. I put the coffee pot on the hob without any water so that's exploded - I had one pot for about ten years without incident but I'll have to get my third one this year tomorrow. I've come down here to check my bank balance but haven't brought the card or the bastard pin thing which I have finally learned to use. Moan moan moan. On the plus side .... Jane's going away tomorrow so Millie is coming to stay till Thursday, which will be lovely... V1rgin promise that the replacement modem will arrive tomorrow... We had lunch in the pub so I don't need to cook... this time next week I'll be listening to Leonard Cohen, live in the sun. Or rain or whatever, I'm not fussed. Hasta luego, carinos xxxx |5:58 p.m. - 27/07/2008 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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