annanotbob's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- If there's anything that you want Not a proper entry, just a 'for the record'. Renny is home safe and sound. I feel as shaky as shit. Overwhelmed. I did a bit of writing - see previous entry - about being beaten up, kicked and punched, and how it has lead to being scared of making anyone angry, far too passive in my relationships, but I only managed to write about it factually, couldn't get near the emotions, either of then or now. Started reading Shoot the Damn Dog by Sally Brampton - memoir of a depression, though I have lots of more cheerful things to do. So much in common, such a relief. I want everyone to read it, especially those who just don't 'get' depression. There's not enough clear floor to even sit down on and I don't know where to start. Jane's lovely mum is visiting - I may go and see her for a hug. She's not 100% lovely - Jane finds her very difficult, but I've got drunk with her a couple of times and find her soothing. I feel on the verge of something terrible. Not good. |12:14 p.m. - 13/07/2008 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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